Rise Up, Oh Heart, For There is Another Battle to Win
Apr 13
Anonymous asked: i just rewatched the wiping scene and i noticed Bucky got tears in his eyes when he accepted his fate, there's this post loki-the-god-in-green(.)tumblr(.)com/post/88158477289/heavenlyjunkie666-the-tears-in-his-eyes
Everything about the wipe is so sickening. This scene as a whole was the most horrifying thing I’ve seen in the MCU to date and yes, I remember Iron Man and Tony’s torture and no, this is still the most horrifying thing.
It’s not just the utterly sickening lack of agency, and the fact that he is half naked and injured and surrounded by men in swat gear with guns and rifles pointed at him. It’s not just the fact that you know he could take down everyone in this room without even breaking a sweat and yet he doesn’t. It’s not even just Pierce backhanding him, like he’d hit a broken toy to try and get it to start again.
It’s the fact that there’s something there. There’s something he’s hanging on to, desperately, there’s something clawing at him and it hurts because he’s remembering and he doesn’t know what it means, he doesn’t have parameters to deal with this, he’s overwhelmed and in pain and resigned that it’s going to be taken away from him but it’s too important to let it go. He speaks out of turn, “But I knew him,” he knows he’s going to hurt, now, his body remembers, he hyperventilates before the head piece is even in place, but someone gave him a name and that is too important, that he can’t let go, he can’t shove it back. And if you look here?
This isn’t resignation. This is defiance. This is emotional bleed. He knows he’s being lied to. He knows, just as he viscerally knew the man on the bridge. They’re going to try and take it away from him, and the last thing he can remember thinking as the headpiece slots in place is to hold on, just hold on, hold on to the name, hold on to that face, he can hold on, he can.
And he does. He fucking does. After Steve cracked him open, not even the wipe, not even the electroshock and the pain and the threat of what would happen to him if he failed was enough to shake off that bone-deep feeling that he knew him. The asset might’ve taken down Captain america, but Bucky Barnes would never, ever harm Steve Rogers. Hydra done and fucked up. They forgot these men’s identities, discarded them, regarded them as not relevant; but the moment Steve was able to break through and give Bucky back a doubt, a shred of sense of self, their whole programming collapsed like a fucking house of cards.
They forgot, banally, that there was still a person inside their beautifully carved weapon. And I can’t wait for the moment where James Buchanan Barnes reminds them. The time of reckoning is upon Hydra, and it’s going to be glorious.
Did someone say revenge?
I never could figure out why everyone was talking about how “blank” and passive Bucky was and ignored that final look before they wiped him. He was DEFIANT. Yes he’d been passive and confused up to that point, but when he knows what they’re going to do and he knows he’s not going to get any answers from them, he looks at them all as coldly and defiantly as Bucky’s ever looked at anyone. He looks them right in the eye and doesn’t flinch because I think it’s at that moment whatever is left of Bucky claws its way up and he makes it a point to try to hold on. I think that’s why the second brain wiping barely seems to phase him when he gets on the helicarrier. For all intents and purposes, he’s an emotional mess before he even gets to Steve. It’s like the brain wiping barely did anything.
Just like he tried to choke the one doctor the minute they started showing him his cyber arm, that look before they wipe him again is pure Bucky. Bucky was always colder than Steve and always more on the ruthless side. Imagine that with only a fledgling version of the kind part of Bucky still trying to come up. Hydra is screwed. They tried to wipe out the only thing in Bucky that might have saved them. Bucky’s still a good man in there, but that’s the part of him he’s got to get reacquainted with. And Hydra’s going to pay while he remembers who Bucky is.
idk but my headcanon is that whenever steve and bucky are gonna meet up with each other, bucky checks all the alleyways and places like that just to make sure that steve isnt being beat up
Bucky eventually not even checking if it’s Steve anymore and becoming an accidental neighbourhood vigilante because every time he sees some small skinny guy being beaten up in an alley way he charges in like a rhino and saves the guy and goes “you stupid fuck steve” and they look at him and go “who the fuck are you”
I see a lot of art and fanfic showing AUs of highschool, college, etc. where Bucky is the naughty, sexy bad boy. That’s all awesome, I’m not criticizing, I love those stories too. I’m just…extrapolating, I guess.
I mean, the Winter Soldier IS a bad boy, all emo with the hair and the amnesia and the metal arm. I think we can all agree that he needs a good spanking. (Just me? No?)
But MCU Bucky Barnes? At least from what we see in the movies, he’s a stand up guy. He enlisted and didn’t get kicked out; he served honorably up until his “death”; he may have been a scoundrel with the ladies but that’s barely suggested, I mean, double dating would not be considered risque for two guys in their early 20s in 1942. His idea of a good time is not a dive bar but a family-friendly technology fair.
Steve on the other hand, he’s going around with a chip on his shoulder, starting fights he can’t finish, and trying to defraud the military by lying about his identity MORE THAN ONCE in an effort to enlist. His first military engagement happened because he directly disobeyed orders and went AWOL, two court-martial offenses.
No, it’s not Bucky Barnes, punk. It’s Bucky Barnes, letter man and quarterback with a great attendance record and glowing report cards and is head of the Science Club. But he keeps getting hassled because he’s hanging around with that disreputable Rogers kid who is probably queer and thinks he’s an “artist” and has weird piercings and was last seen ditching class in order stand guard outside of a Planned Parenthood clinic or getting into a fight with the police at an Occupy Movement rally.
“Seriously, Barnes, you could do better.” — every adult within five miles of Bucky Barnes and Steve Rogers.
Imagine after Bucky joins the Avengers the guys are telling him about all the missions they’ve gone on and they’re casually mentioning all the times Steve’s almost killed himself and Bucky keeps glaring at him like,
“you jumped out of a plane? With no parachute?”
“you crashed your plane in the middle of the ocean?”
"you were going to fight a GOD?!”
and the rest of the avengers just have to sit there listening to Bucky shouting at Steve, for like an hour.
After the Winter Soldier shot out Howard’s tires and caused his car to crash, he walk up close to finish the job.
Howard recognizes him and realizes just how deep HYDRA has gone.
In his last words he begs Bucky, “Please, Barnes, not my son.”
Bucky shoots him.
But from here after, anytime HYDRA attempt to send him to kill Tony, Bucky would go berserk. Until finally HYDRA just stop trying to send the Winter Soldier after Tony Stark.
You know, a few months ago this dude friend of mine showed up to hang out with me all dejected. Over a couple of drinks he explained his long face – earlier that night, he’d been walking down the street behind this really cute girl, and when she looked back at him over her shoulder, he thought it was in interest and smiled at her. Now, this guy is tall and skinny, can most commonly be found in glasses and t-shirts scrawled across with math jokes, is kind to animals, considers himself a feminist. What he doesn’t consider himself is threatening, so he was surprised, confused, and even hurt by what happened next: the girl in front of him responding to his called greeting of, “Nice skirt,” by taking off down the darkened street in a dead run.
“Yeah,” I said, “she probably thought you were going to rape her.“
"But that’s not fair,” he said. “I’m a good person; I’d never rape anyone! How could she think that? She doesn’t even know me."
Out here in the wilds of the internet, I often find myself making arguments about shit like feminism and rape culture unilaterally. For one thing, there’s so much (like, so much) out there arguing unilaterally against this shit that I feel it’s necessary; for another thing, ‘round these parts there’s a lot of people jumping to hostility when it’s painfully clear they don’t have a handle on all the facts. But I’m more lenient with the people in my real life, especially dudes like the one mentioned above. I’m willing to extend to them a patience that I wouldn’t with strangers on the internet, because they matter to me, and it matters to me that they understand. So when my friend sat there that night, whining over his beer and responding to my attempted explanations with, "But I’d love it if a girl smiled at me on the street, or even catcalled at me! Fuck, even if a dude did it, I’d be flattered,” I decided to spend some time thinking about how to clear things up for him. It took awhile, but I finally came up with a metaphor to get the job done:
No, but think about this. We’ve seen the Winter Soldier face Fury’s car.
Maybe he’s done the same with Howard. Maybe his hair wasn’t so long yet. Maybe he wasn’t wearing a mask. Maybe Howard saw his face in the headlights for just a second.
Maybe Howard and Maria died in a car crash. Maybe Howard swerved to not hit a ghost.
