as someone whos experienced multiple traumas, i do have ptsd but i don’t have any way of getting professional help for it! idk if thisll help but here are a bunch of resources that help(ed) me and might help u if ur in the same situation <3
record your thoughts uncensored. notebooks are preferable but a word document, voice recordings, whatever works for u. keep all ur stuff about trauma here. resources, quotes, ur own Personal Journey, document it all! keep it safe
confide in something or someone. find an outlet where u are mostly honest w urself/ur situation/ur thoughts. having a supportive network, even if they don’t know ur whole situation, rly helps! if u don’t have anyone irl, its honestly so okay if all of ur friends are on the internet (as long as youre safe)!
try to do something small every day. that can be taking two minutes to relax and do nothing, or saying one nice thing about urself, it doesnt have to be a whole hour of workbooking or w/e! any progress is good progress! it doesnt have to be every day either
not all coping mechanisms are equal. if a coping mechanism starts doing more harm than good, wean yourself off of it, replace with a healthier one. (for example, self harm is an unhealthy coping mech. taking a walk or watching tv might be healthier for u).
use a variety of resources. ofc find what works best for u, but also use many sources to research etc so u don’t end up w biased info! i tried to link a variety of resources here (website articles, pdfs, tumblr posts) but if u find ur own, make sure its not like Bad idk.
lmk if i linked or said smth bad please! i dnt want to hurt anyone & also if u want more detailed trigger warnings for something, lmk and ill do that !!
anyway I LOVE U ptsd is so rough and even if u don’t have it bt uve experienced trauma i love u. its hard to rebuild urself afterwards. its okay if u realize ur different now. keep going ur gna b okay!
he asked, sounding defensive. He was quiet a moment. Then, abashed, he said.
‘Your relatives are jerks and they didn’t deserve you,’ Rachel snapped.
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Book #31: The Conspiracy, pg. 42 (by K.A. Applegate)
Okay but just let me, like, get this off my chest.
I feel like a lot of the various ghost writers didn’t have a super great grasp on how to deal with Tobias’ background which, like, hey y’all, no judgment, I’m told it’s hard to generate authentically fucked up family dynamics without shall-we-say hands on experience. (Actually the person who wrote 33 did really well, particularly the scene with Tobias’ near-death hallucination/what-have-you and every time I read it I need to physically remove my heart from my body in order to make it stop causing me pain but A N Y W A Y.) But this person, who wasn’t even writing a Tobias book, I think presented one of the most authentic moments of Kid Who Was Pretty Fucked Up To Start With accidentally reminding all his friends who are More Freshly Fucked Up that his life has literally always sucked. Like, this person nailed the FUCK out of this particular exchange.
It’s how casual it is. I think I saw someone comment once that Tobias seems almost uncaring in this book which…yes? I mean, it’s not so much that Tobias doesn’t care, he cares very much, but he just has NO point of comparison. But it’s the totally casual nature of this comment that makes it seem natural. This seems like a totally logical statement on Tobias’ part, and the revelation that it’s not is upsetting to him. Not because he’s profoundly distressed in the moment about his family, but because he’s experiencing a shift in worldview–something he viewed as normal, maybe even as a positive, is an indicator of neglect. It’s a weird feeling. And this exchange NAILS THAT FEELING.
Also, Rachel’s clear and evident rage on his behalf makes me really happy.
Remember when the Ellimist was like “how about we pit seven of your ultimate killing machines against my six accident-prone teenagers and a hardwired pacifist” and Crayak was like “there is obviously no trick here, I don’t see how this can possibly go wrong”.
‘All that you need to know about boars can be summed up in the fact that if you wish to hunt them, you must have a specially made boar spear. This spear has a crosspiece on it to prevent the boar from charging the length of the spear, driving it all the way through his own body, to savage the human holding the other end.’
-Boar and Apples, T. Kingfisher
fuck OFF
Note that pigs are also HUGE. So, yes, they ARE slightly larger pigs.
So I grew up in the city and have never seen a pig in real life and I just googled it and WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS
I thought they were like labrador sized, like, fat labradors, not mini-cows.
every time I see this post there are more people discovering how fuck off huge pigs actually are and I love it I thought this was a thing everyone knew but clearly not and I’m laughing
This is me with our Tamworth boar, a heritage breed closer to their wild cousins than the Yorkshire above. I am a fully grown, average sized human. He was a gentle sweetie who, sadly, is no longer with us. His name was Mr. Big.
