you know, you are 100% correct.
“You know the opinion I entertain of mankind, and how much it is my desire to preserve myself free from particular attachments, and to keep my happiness independent of the caprice of others. You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent.” -alex hamilton, in an April 1779 letter to john laurens (chernow pg. 123)
hamilspeak for “i hate most things but i never seem to hate you”
i can’t even make this stuff up, man. goddamn. lams is the realest.
No you don’t understand there are two Hamilton quotes where he literally says “I hate everything except Laurens” in almost those exact words:
“In short Laurens I am disgusted with every thing in this world but yourself and very few more honest fellows and I have no other wish than as soon as possible to make a brilliant exit.” - AH to JL, January 8, 1780
“I hate Congress—I hate the army—I hate the world—I hate myself. The whole is a mass of fools and knaves; I could almost except you and Meade.” - AH to JL, September 12, 1780