I wish my brain would stop reminding me how I embarrassed myself because it’s really fucking rude. I wish it didn’t take me years to forget shit like that and that I didn’t dwell on it. Honestly it doesn’t matter to anyone but myself - we have all done some humiliating shit - and yet my brain keeps being like, “Hey, remember how you fucked up and made a fool out of yourself? Just checking. I’ll keep up the reminders just in case you forget!”
The other day I remembered something stupid that I said in elementary school and its been cropping up in my brain and making me feel cringey since. I haven’t seen any of those people in years, I will probably never see any of them again, and yet there’s still this part of my brain that wants to whisper But WHat did they THInk of you? You were SUch an idIOT…
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