Rise Up, Oh Heart, For There is Another Battle to Win

archangelruind:

my friend is studying for the mcat and was just trying to explain to me about heat transfer and she said ‘you know, like the reason you get cold when you go outside on a freezing day is that your tiny human body is trying to warm up the entire universe’ and i think that’s the best thing i have ever heard

fun fact, i’m studying for the mcat right now and physics is my worst subject (like…i speak a dead language and taught an anatomy class and aced biochem, but I barely scraped by in physics) and this is how i remember how radiant heat works

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beirut:

beirut:

Having ADHD is hard because 

this post has been in my drafts for like 5 months and I still don’t know what I was going to say

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quousque:

corvus-onca-sapien:

berukatxt:

The two ADHD moods:

- I can’t do it

- I can’t stop doing it

The two types of ADHD time:

- now

- not now

the two ADHD memory modes:

-I literally cannot recall the words that just came out of my mouth

-I can recite the opening paragraph of every single magic treehouse book

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fireheartedkaratepup:

mousathe14:

adhighdefinition:

adhighdefinition:

no one ever talks about the part of adhd where everyone in your class has got their group of friends and you’re just there, mindlessly tagging along with anyone who is willing to put up with you for a few minutes. either you’re too loud or too quiet. if you’re lucky, it won’t affect you much. you’re a loner, so what? but then the moments come around where you find yourself yearning to be like the others. you’re not depressed, why would you be? you’re a child who just happens to be a little different. sure, you’re usually the last choice when it comes to groups and you’re rarely, if ever, invited to birthday parties but… it’s alright. everything is fine. or is it?

for the people questioning whether this really is part of adhd or not

…. that was the ADHD? I thought I just… I was…

Hmmm….

It’s autism too

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spaceykiid:

spaceykiid:

let autistic people infodump about their special interests without laughing at them or telling them they’re annoying. that kinda shit is what wrecks someone’s self-esteem and makes it even harder for them to form relationships bc everyone has told them they’re annoying and that their interests are stupid. don’t do it

forgot to add: this goes for ppl w adhd / add that have hyperfixations as well

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Anonymous asked: so much good content here and not enough time for me to catch up h e l p why do u run such a good blog

I’m sorry?  Thank you?

In all seriousness though, the answer to your question is “lack of focus and inability to master the impulse to reblog anything I even slightly enjoy.”

To my friends on the spectrum, let me explain to you an unspoken social rule that possibly nobody has ever explained to you before

bonehandledknife:

survivablyso:

bonehandledknife:

lierdumoa:

If a neurotypical asks you, “What game are you playing?” they’re not asking you to describe the game.

They’re asking you if they can play too.

If a neurotypical asks you, “What are you watching?” they’re not asking you to explain the plot of the movie/tv show to them.

They’re asking if they can watch it with you.

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When neurotypicals ask you “What are you doing?” 

• What you think they’re asking: “Please explain to me what you are doing.” 
  
• What they’re actually asking:  “Can I join you?”
  

Now here’s the really fucked up part. If you start explaining to them what you’re doing? They will interpret that as a rejection. 

• What you think you’re saying: [the answer to their question]
  
• What they think you’re saying: This is an elite and exclusive activity for a level 5 friend and you are a level 1 acquaintance. You are not qualified to join me because you don’t know all this stuff. Go away.
  

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This is why neurotypicals think you’re being cold and antisocial.

IT’S ALL A HORRIBLE MISCOMMUNICATION.

I didn’t realize, even thought it took me almost three decades to learn this, that this was such a paradigm changing realization until we had our conversation today.

But it really really is. One of the most bewildering realizations I’ve had is most people don’t talk to learn things unless its related to work or directly towards their own hobbies, all the words and questions are bonding questions if done socially. They are “lets make friends” questions.

So if I answer their question without an opportunity for the person asking the question to give a response or to join in somehow, the asker feels alienated and starts shutting down.

Example: what are you reading?

True answer but not what they’re looking for: Title of book

Best answer for social scenarios where I want to retain/create friendship: This book is about x and y but it has z that i know u have an interest in too.

Example: what are you doing?

True answer but not: drawing

Best answer for friends: I’m drawing but would u like company while I’m working?

And sometimes frankly I’m not in a headspace where I can process people so the answer is something like, “I would like to do something in a day or later, do you want to plan something?”

Tldr: communication is wierd

HOLY

SHIT

that explains so fucking much thank you

(why the fuck do neurotypicals never just day what they mean ie hey this show looks cool mind if I join you)

Further annoying?

They don’t realize that’s what they’re asking and they just feel rejected and go away. So you can’t even ask them what you did wrong because they can’t even put a finger on why they feel the way they do they just know you made them feel bad for some undefined reason.

Oh

Ohhhhhhhhh

Oh shit wow sorry @everyone I’ve ever done this to

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egalitarian-nature-blog:

bpd-darling:

me (cleaning up): holds knife

intrusive thoughts: what if-

me: ok edgelord we get it what if i slit my wrists right now can we please just focus

Additionally;
me: *waiting for the subway*
intrusive thoughts: what if you jumped
me: it would cause a four hour delay while they pick your body parts out of the rails you fucking prick, can we please for once get on public transit without going through this

Also;
Me: *walking along a busy road*
intrusive thoughts: What if you just fell over in front of this truck?
Me: It would back up traffic all fucking night and probably hurt a lot of people you prick.

Gosh. I never have thoughts like this

didnt ask but that sounds nice

Me: *walking down the stairs*
Intrusive Thought: I could throw myself down these flight of stairs and leave more time for everyone else!
Me: Or you end up with a broken wrist and sprain ankle you dickhead keep walking

Me: *driving on a bridge*
Intrusive thoughts: I could just drive straight into that lake and finish it right now.
Me: You asshole, this is a new car. Just fucking keep going like everyone else you prick.

oh my god,^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

I needed this

Me: *standing at a lookout* It’s so beautiful here…

Intrusive thoughts: yeah, look at that view, you could just step out into it and you’d probably never feel the impact when you hit the ground 20m below…

Me: Bitch, don’t ruin the view for everyone else. Fucksake.

Me: *doing literally nothing*

Intrusive thoughts: What if-

Me: Can’t you just shut the fuck up and chill for once? God damn

me:*sitting in a car,staring out the window*

intrusive thoughts: you know we could so easily open the car door and jump out

me:that would cause a traffic accident buddy,lets just keep looking at shit 

me: *driving behind a semi*

intrusive thoughts: if we slammed the foot on the gas-

me: this isn’t even our car, dumbass, it’s Tony’s

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slyrider:

cosmicblushes:

bad times with adhd:

• cant read
  
• can read, but cant comprehend what ur reading
• boredom more like Time To Suffer
• rsd
• u wanna watch a video thats any amount of time??? thats too long, even if the video is like 10 seconds
• becoming too aware of how things feel or how u do certain things or just regular bodily functions like breathing or blinking
• staying up until 4 AM or later for no reason aside from adhd said so
• that sinking feeling when u realized uve spaced out for most of a conversation and u feel too bad abt doing it to ask the person to repeat what they said 
• overstimulation
• meltdowns
• when u have the motivation to get shit done, but executive dysfunction is like “lmfao nope”
• trying to get certain stuff done and ur managing ok, but u still get distracted on occasion and u scold urself every time u do but u cant stop urself from doing it
• the antsy anxiousness that comes with being confined to doing smth for too long
• “i hope i remember this” u didnt remember it
  
• outbursts which cause u to snap at ppl and then u feel bad but u couldnt help it
• no volume control so ur constantly told to stop yelling but u cant make ur voice quieter 
• *someone explains instructions and its a rather simple thing* “ok got it” u dont got it
• getting irrationally irritated over the smallest shit but u cant help it everything is just So Frustrating 
• “u know what i think im having a good day” and then mood swing that makes u either Super Sad or Super Mad for no reason
  
• having what ur gonna say right in ur head but somehow u still space out in the middle of talking and forget what u wanted to say
• forgetting why u were upset but still feeling upset
• the sinking feeling of remembering why u were upset and now ur even more upset
• when rsd is being extremely irrational and u know its bullshit but u dont have the energy to fight it so u just sit there in sadness
• when rsd makes u self conscious abt stimming in public
• having absolutely no time perception at all. what even is time ive never heard of that in my life
• needing to get smth done and u manage to focus, but ur focusing on the wrong thing
• overanalyzing past stuff thats happened and realizing other shit u couldve said that wouldve helped the situation and damn why didnt u think of that when u were in the situation
• this is long i should stop now

@words-writ-in-starlight

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