Rise Up, Oh Heart, For There is Another Battle to Win

terpsikeraunos:

if we can’t apply modern concepts of sexuality to the ancient world…that means that literally no one was straight. no one. heterosexuals never existed in ancient rome or greece. they didn’t exist until the term was coined in the 19th century.

but for some reason this concept only comes up when people are trying to erase lgbt+ people from ancient history. strange coincidence.

Me, about historical characters:  Well, yeah, this person was almost certainly in a relationship with this other person of the same gender, but that would have been viewed differently than our modern perception of ‘gay relationships’–

Some asshole:  Because they were straight and friendships just used to be so intense and intimate!!!

Me, unhinging my jaw to scream: ALL YOUR HISTORICAL FAVES WERE GAY.  *begins to bludgeon them with Sonnet 18*  SHALL I FUCKING COMPARE THEE TO A SUMMER’S DAY?

(via starwarsisgay)

Who wants to hear my latest story of being a fucking disaster?

All right, so, here’s the deal: I’m pre-med, just finished my junior year of college, and, like a fucking moron I thought that I could maybe trust that, y’know, literally anyone in the department at my school would have realized that I do not actually know everything.  In fact, I often don’t even know what I don’t know, and therefore am often in a position of, A, flying completely blind, B, bordering on a panic attack, and, C, totally unable to even start doing research in order to resolve my ignorance.

Why does this currently matter?

So, the deadline for the medical school app (yeah, there’s just the one, apparently, and they send it to the schools you want them to send it to) turns out to be October 13th.

That means that I need to take the MCATs at such a time that I’ll have the grades by October 13th, meaning that I need to take it in early September (because then the grades will be out on October 12th), which means that instead of having a significant part of next semester to study, I have this summer.

Now.  I also have an internship this summer.  A very intensive internship eight hours from my home.  An entirely research-based internship that I only signed up for after my…everyone spent months talking me into it.  After my organic chemistry teacher spent an entire semester talking me into it.  I do not have time to intensively study for the MCATs during this internship, but I guess I’m going to have to fucking make do because I will not retain information through a gap year.  If someone had thought for one second to talk to me about the MCAT thing, this all would have been very different.  Given that it actually never came up, I did not even begin to realize the size of this critical gap in my knowledge.

You know, I have trust issues and I know it, and I have trust issues with teachers and authority figures specifically, but somehow every once in a while I get comfortable enough or stupid enough (fuck if I can tell the difference anymore) to think they’re actually going to take care of me.  And then I am suddenly and viciously reminded of the fact that this always happens and I shouldn’t be surprised anymore and yet somehow I always am.  I expect teachers to punish me for things that aren’t my fault or leave me to handle a physical threat without help–hell, I even expect teachers to punish me for handling a threat to my safety.  But for some goddamn reason I always fool myself into thinking that somehow they’re going to help me with shit like this.

For @littlestartopaz: Rogue/anyone really, with AN (“Have I entered an alternate universe or did you just crack a smile for me?”) from this post

Remy LaBeau, it’s gonna be Remy La-Fucking-Beau, because I am shipper trash and Rogue/Gambit is my hill to die on, y’all. Also, since Rogue’s life sucks PRETTY BAD, I’m going to try to write actual fluff tonight.  This could be almost any continuity—I’m kind of visualizing the potential future of the MacAvoy, Fassbender, et. al. movies, because I saw Apocalypse twice in a week and that’ll do stuff to you.  I don’t really like writing out accents, so feel free to mentally sub them in—Rogue’s from Mississippi, Remy’s from New Orleans, in case you didn’t know.

“Oh m’God, who’s cooking, that is amazing,” Rogue called as she swept into the mansion and was hit by a wall of smoky-sweet warmth spilling from the kitchen.  “Is that jambalaya?  Am I gonna have to do extra Danger Room sessions or somethin’ for that?”

“That depends, ma chérie,” the man at the stove said, turning and shooting her a smirk. “What’re you prepared to do?”

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OH MY GOD

overfour-sets-of-corsets:

Okay so I just saw Hamilton yesterday and I’m still kind of in shock of the fact that I actually saw it but I’m gonna tell you guys as much as I can about it. Alright here we go!

•Only 34 of the 46 songs on the album are listed in the Playbill
•It doesn’t include Aaron Burr, Sir, A Winter’s Ball, The Story of Tonight (Reprise), Meet Me Inside, Guns and Ships, What Comes Next?, Cabinet Battle #1, Cabinet Battle #2, I Know Him, We Know, Stay Alive (Reprise), and Best of Wives and Best of Women
•Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story is called Finale in the Playbill
•There was a buttload of applause everytime a new main character was introduced
•In Alexander Hamilton, when Christopher Jackson says “moved in with a cousin, the cousins committed suicide” ensemble member Gregory Haney (I think) stands on a chair center stage and pretends to hang himself
•In Aaron Burr, Sir, when Burr says “talk less” he does little hand movements with it
•All of the beat boxing during the rap sections for Laurens, Lafayette, and Mulligan is just Hercules banging his fist on the table. During his verse, John takes over
•In My Shot, when Hamilton says “Mr. Lafayette hard rock like Lancelot” he points at himself with a super proud face on
•When Hamilton says “I think your pants look hot” Hercules puts his foot on the bench and swipes back his coat Michael Jackson style to reveal his lovely pants
•Later in the song when they do the “woah woah wooooooooooah…” the Schuyler sisters and some other people are on the bridge and with each “woah” they do a cool mechanical arm thing
•In The Story of Tonight Hamilton says “and when our children tell our story” the person on stage left (I don’t remember if it’s Lafayette of Mulligan) just looks really shocked like he never even thought about having kids
•In The Schuyler Sisters after Burr’s introduction Peggy comes onstage first stomping around like a tiny child and it’s really cute. Throughout the song she gets dragged around by her sisters because she’s a child who cannot be trusted
•At the end of the first chorus and the beginning of when Burr talks again, the rotating stage spins slowly and the sisters all walk in the opposite direction so it looks like they’re actually going somewhere and it’s super cool
•In Farmer Refuted Mulligan says “oh my god, tear this dude apart” to Hamilton and massages his shoulders like a wrestling coach which makes him start walking over to Seabury to speak his mind
•Then Aaron says “let him be” and Hamilton backs down, still looking kind of upset
•After that, Mulligan goes over to him and pats him on the back as a silent prompt to say something to Seabury. Aaron doesn’t see it so he thinks he won’t say anything
•When Alex finally starts talking over Seabury (who’s standing on a little footstool) he just looks really shocked and offended
•Burr is also kind of shocked because he didn’t think Hamilton would do it since he talked to him
•After a little bit, Seabury moves his footstool in front of Hamilton but he steps in front of it
•Then Hamilton gets up on the footstool with Seabury and he’s just so disheveled at this point it’s great
•In You’ll Be Back, everyone has left the stage by the time his song starts and he’s decked out in the entire outfit
•Rory O’ Malley is really good so don’t by salty if you’re seeing him and not one of the other three Georges
•In Right Hand Man when Ham goes “they’re battering down the battery check the damages…etc” He’s walking downstage and Mulligan just follows him for no other reason than to go “brrrrrah”
•When Burr is trying to talk to Washington and then Hamilton comes in, he’s like “as I was saying…” to try and continue the conversation and then G. Wash is just like “close the door on your way out” and Burr’s face just drops
•During Helpless Jasmine and Anthony keep sneaking around and doing cute couple stuff and it’s adorable
•They dabbed in the show. Twice.
•The first time is in Helpless when Hamilton gets the okay from Phillip Schuyler to marry Eliza and he does a happy dance ending in a dab
•In the beginning of Satisfied, John Laurens is just super duper drunk while he’s talking and it makes me laugh but it’s also really sad because it’s kind of a reference to him also loving Hamilton
•Then when they do the whole rewind thing, they actually rewind all of the choreography and lighting cues to get back to that might and it looks SO COOL
•A lot of the stage direction in Satisfied is the same as it was in Helpless which is to be expected but it’s still so crazy to actually watch
•At the end of Satisfied when they go back to the toast, Angelica’s entire attitude is really strained like she wants to be happy but she just can’t
•The pelvic thrust that the gang does is in The Story of Tonight (Reprise) and it starts when Mulligan says “to the newly not poor of us” and he starts the thrust, then Lafayette joins in, and finally Laurens
•Laurens’ voice just completely changes when he says “on the siiiiiiide, Burr” and it’s hilarious
•Aaron goes “she’s married to a British officer” and Alex just goes “oh shit” and it’s completely there and he doesn’t fade away when he says it or anything it’s great
•The choreography in Wait for it is really simple and beautiful and there’s only ever light on Burr
•The first time Ariana DeBose is the bullet is when you hear the gunshot at the beginning of Stay Alive because a British soldier tried to shoot Hamilton but he’s hunched over a letter so the bullet (Ariana) goes right over his head
•Charles Lee is usually played by John Rua which I didn’t know
•Thayne Jasperson is the doctor in all of the duels
•In Meet Me Inside John Laurens says “I’m satisfied” but he still tries to fight Lee and Hamilton has to hold him back
•When Washington says “thank you for your service” he takes off his hat and bows super deeply
•Pippa’s annunciation in That Would Be Enough is On Point™
•At the end of Guns and Ships G. Wash sends a letter to Hamilton and as he’s singing, the letter is taken from the stage right side of the bridge all the way to the left and down the stairs to Hamilton where he reads it and journeys to Washington
•The entirety of History has its Eyes on You is Washington talking to Hamilton
•Laurens killing the British soldier in Yorktown is so great I love it
•The dance sequence in Yorktown is just sO FREAKING AMAZING
•In What Comes Next? People are still exiting the stage from Yorktown and King George keeps running into them with a disgusted look on his face
•King George only has his fun coat robe thingy on in his first song. After that, it’s gone and he becomes more distressed and disheveled with each song that he does
•The setup for Dear Theodosia starts with Burr taking a chair on ½ stage right and standing behind it while he sings in the only pool of light onstage
•When Hamilton starts singing he brings his own chair onstage and stands behind it in the same way as Burr. The light switches to him and it goes out on Burr as he sits down in the chair
•Once Burr starts singing again his light goes back on and Alex sits in his chair
•JOHN LAURENS’ DEATH KILLED ME IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I CRIED DURING THE SHOW AND IT WAS THE SADDEST THING EVER YOU GUYS I DIED
•When Hamilton and Burr are having their midnight conversation in Non-Stop Burr is stage right and the light coming from behind him looks like he opened a door it’s cool
•When Angelica says “don’t forget to write” she’s standing on the outer circle and it rotates away from Alex like she’s going across the ocean and Eliza’s on a different part of the circle so when Angelica rotates away, she rotates to him and it’s really cool
•At the very end of What’d I Miss? Jefferson does a weird flappy arm thing and prances in a wide circle which is why Hamilton does a smaller version of it in Cabinet Battle #1
•G. Wash is a quality MC
•When Hamilton says “while you were off gettin’ high with the French!” Madison gets a coughing fit and has to sit down which causes Ham to turn his debating attention towards him
•There’s an actual piano onstage for Take a Break
•ELIZA’S MATERNAL BEATBOXING OH MY GOD IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL
•Angelica and Eliza are super cute together during this song and I love them both so much because they’re super sister-y it’s great
•In Say No to This, part of the set is three lampposts spread out evenly across the outer rotating circle. At the end of the song, Maria, Alexander, and Mr. Reynolds were all standing on the outer rotating circle in roughly the same spots as the lampposts which was really cool
•James Reynolds is wearing a goddamn cowboy hat
•When Hamilton says “stop crying, goddamit, get up” Maria is actually on her knees begging
•The yes exchange between Ham and Maria near the end of the song are supposedly them having sex which makes a lot of sense but she’s literally sitting on his lap and he’s like feeling her up it’s super sexual
•At the end of Say No to This as James Reynolds is walking offstage, he claps his hands once and then Maria looks at him and starts to follow him off, then looks back one more time before exiting. It’s one of the main contributors to me that he was very controlling in the relationship
•When Hamilton says “talk less” in The Room Where it Happens he imitates Burr’s hand movements as well as his voice
•In Washington on your Side, Burr starts the song looking in the direction that Hamilton just went and Jefferson is pretty much like “who the fuck is this boy right here?”
•Madison doesn’t enter for the song until he has to talk and when he does, he’s saying “which I wrote” to some person offstage that we can’t see
•During most of the song there are just spotlights on each of the Southern Motherfuckin’ Democratic Republicans but every time they say “OH” in the song, all of the lights flash for a second and then go away so it’s just the spotlights again
•In I Know Him, Ariana DeBose whispers the name John Adams to King George from kind of far away so he goes “what.” And then she whispers it again so that he can hear it
•I Know Him ends with George sitting on a stool down stage right
•He doesn’t leave until the middle of The Adam’s Administration so in the beginning he’s trying to dance to the song from his stool but it’s in such a different style so it’s hilarious
•Leslie Odom Jr. started laughing when he looked at King George III during the song but he had to keep singing
•In We Know, Jefferson goes “my god” and the expression on his face is so great
•The lighting in Hurricane looks like an ocean and on the outer rotating circle you can see all of the things that happened to Hamilton before he came to America it’s super cool
•In The Reynolds Pamphlet, Hamilton is sitting at his desk center stage while Jefferson is reading out loud down center stage facing the audience and Philip is between them facing his father upstage
•About halfway through Jefferson’s reading, Philip backs into him and they switch places. T. Jeffs hands Lil’ Ham a pamphlet and continues to read it over his shoulder with a grin on his face (he makes sure to point out the “most of them in my own house” part). When he’s done reading, he sends Philip on his way where he looks up at his dad and walks offstage with his head hung low
•T. Jeffs is just bouncing up and down on Hamilton’s desk during the song I don’t know how he bounces so much
•Daveed Diggs as Thomas Jefferson is super bouncy
•There are a lot of happy dances in the show
•Like
•A lot of happy dances
•FUCKING BURN HOLY SHIT THAT WAS THE SECOND TIME I CRIED IN THE SHOW
•When Eliza set the letters on fire I was just bawling my eyes out I was a fucking mess during a lot of the second act
•When Philip talks to Eaker during the show there’s an actual show being performed center stage that pauses during their conversation and resumes when it’s over
•George Eaker is a piece of shit.
•George Eaker is a piece of shit.
•I want to strangle George Eaker with my bare hands
•There are sound effects during Stay Alive (Reprise) of blood gushing from a wound and it’s horrifying
•Whenever Philip tries to talk you can hear how much pain he’s in and Anthony Ramos’s acting is so amazing
•Stay Alive (Reprise) was the third time I cried
•Eliza’s scream at the end made me want to curl up into a ball and die
•It’s Quiet Uptown also made me cry
•The lighting completely blacked out center stage during the whole song which made it look like a chasm
•When Madison says “please” in The Election of 1800 he’s wiping his eyes with a handkerchief and it’s so sweet
•Burr hears what everyone is saying about each of the presidential candidates and when the guys say “like you could grab a beer with him” he’s like “yes” but he doesn’t actually say it and he’s does a little fist thingy
•The second dab is in The Election of 1800 when Hamilton promotes Jefferson instead of Burr and he does his own happy dance involving a dab
•While Hamilton’s talking, Burr and Jefferson are standing on different sides of the stage. Burr has a really excited smile and Jefferson has a smug-ass grin
•When Hamilton says “Jefferson has my vote” Burr’s smile slowly turns into a really angry face
•In Your Obedient Servant, Burr sends one paper as his letter. What he gets back from Hamilton is at least five pieces of paper and Burr just looks at them like “good lord Hamilton writes too goddamn much”
•"This man will not make an orphan of my daughter" broke me and I cried for the fourth time during the show
•Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story was just me attempting to process everything that had happened

If you guys have any questions about the show feel free to ask me! My inbox is always open!

(via slyrider)

words-writ-in-starlight:

words-writ-in-starlight:

words-writ-in-starlight:

I‘m showing my parents Hamilton (well…the soundtrack…because who has money these days) and my mom was crying by the start of Satisfied and I’m just like…can I in good conscience show her It’s Quiet Uptown?  I’m gonna have guilt at the end of this.

BUT HAMILTON IS IMPORTANT SO I’M GONNA DO IT ANYWAY.

Update: my mom, like me, is a Gryffindor to the bone.  My mom, like me, basically burst into tears during Yorktown (I mean, I burst into tears for me, which was…like…two tears total, but whatever).  Why do Gryffindors all cry during Yorktown?  is it because we’re all combative victory-loving people?  Because that’s my explanation.

I’m trying not to think about the upcoming trainwreck now that we just finished Say No to This, SO.  It occurs to me that, in Hamilton, basically every female character who appears except Peggy (who…doesn’t really appear) is in love with Alexander Hamilton.  AND YET.  They still pass the Bechdel test with the very first appearance of the Schuyler sisters.  

BURN.

OW OW OW OW.

Well, we just started Blow Us All Away.

It’s been my pleasure to know y’all; I like red flowers, especially roses, so bring those to the funeral.

(via words-writ-in-starlight)

thesallowbeldam asked: If you're still doing prompts? Cry-lo Ren travels to Korriban (for whatever reason) and takes shelter in a Sith tomb. The spirits of the dead take this fantastic opportunity to rip this pathetic immitator a new. I'm talking Com. Plete. Savage. Bollocking. (that means a lecture btw)

My buddy, my pal, it’s safe to assume that I’m ALWAYS taking prompts.  (I might get to the point where I’m busy enough that it might take me a while to fill them, but I’m always taking prompts.)  Now, I’ll admit that I’m not super well versed in Sith history, and the Sith Lord I’m most familiar with is…well, Vader, who failed to die a Sith Lord and didn’t get entombed on Korriban.  I’ve always kind of liked the mental image of Darth Sidious being disappointed in Kylo, though, so yeah.  Also, I don’t know what happened to Palpatine’s ghost and it appears that neither does anyone else, so we’re going to handwave some stuff because Force.

Personal shuttle crashes are, generally speaking, remarkably easy to survive.  Battlestars or cruisers are bulky and built to survive damage in the black, but a planet-side crash turns them into an avalanche of wreckage.  Fighters, small and quick and light, shatter like glass more often than not, and even when they don’t, their mostly-engine structure doesn’t play well with the heat of a crash.  A personal shuttle, though, is small and sturdy and designed to survive an emergency landing, even if the emergency in question is ‘falling out of the sky.’

“Engines do not just kriffing fail,” Kylo Ren hissed as he pulled himself out of his shuttle and trying to adjust to the heavier gravity.  He snarled a string of curses in a handful of languages, giving a sharp kick to the hull and repressing a grimace of pain.  Snoke would be furious if he missed his ordered arrival time, no matter how good his explanation was, and Kylo felt a shudder down his spine.  He refused to admit that it might be fear.  “There isn’t even anything wrong with this piece of bantha shit,” he shouted, thumping it with a fist.  He raked a gloved hand through his hair—the helmet was still inside the shuttle somewhere—and stared around him at the valley he’d wrecked in.

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