Rise Up, Oh Heart, For There is Another Battle to Win

Anonymous asked: C and F for the fandom meme? (I hope you're having a good day!)

From this ask meme!

C: A pairing you wish you shipped, but just can’t

Oh, wow, sit tight, all of these are entirely predicated on God my life would be easier if I shipped the most popular ship in the fandom.

Charles Xavier/Erik Lensherr: I got committed to the tragic friendship way too young to change my mind, but I have nothing against the ship.

Any configuration at all of Jim Kirk/Spock/Bones McCoy: I just…struggle?  I concur that Spock/Kirk is pretty gay in TOS and I want to ship it, and honestly Kirk/Bones should be my exact shit, but I just–look, Kirk is too in love with the Enterprise for anyone else to have a claim.

Buffy Summers/Spike: nope, nope, nope, nope, can’t do it.  Too rapey, too much sexual assault, even if I didn’t like Angel I wouldn’t be able to handle it.

Doc Holliday/Wynonna Earp: the show clearly really wants me to care about that pairing and like…I guess there’s nothing wrong with it, but I raise you Doc Holliday/Wyatt Earp and Wynonna/Dolls because Dolls is wonderful and Doc is so blindingly obviously in love with Wyatt and trying to work his issues out by fucking Wynonna, which, no judgement, because Wynonna is clearly trying to work out her own adequacy issues by fucking Doc.

Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter: I want to ship it just so I could stop feeling this level of seething wrath about it, I feel similarly about almost EVERY ship that the HP fandom likes, including literally anything that includes Severus Snape.

F: What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom? What fandom was it?

I mean…I was a late-comer to the concept of internet fandom (the last…four or five years?) because of various reasons, but I’ve been a devoted consumer of any X-Men content I could afford to get my hands on since I was 7 and I’ve been collecting Animorphs books about as long, so there’s those.

Anonymous asked: W for the fandom meme?

From this ask meme!

W: List five favorite characters from five different fandoms

Does this mean…one character per fandom, or five characters per fandom?  I’m doing five characters per fandom.  Plus some rampant cheating.

MCU

Jessica Jones

Luke Cage

Claire Temple

Steve Rogers

Natasha Romanoff

+ Elektra Natchios as Honorable Mention since I just spent eight hours of Defenders crooning over my murder girl

Animorphs

RACHEL, A THOUSAND TIMES RACHEL

Tobias

Ax tied with Jake

Eva

…Cassie but she and I have some major ethical differences, thus the tie with Marco

+ Elfangor and Loren as Honorable Mention because I will take any opportunity to remind the whole world how much I love them

Star Wars

Rey

Finn

Poe Dameron

Leia Organa

…and all of Rogue One because I am a filthy cheater

Star Trek

JANEWAY

Jim Kirk

Nyota Uhura

Seven of Nine

Spock tied with Bones McCoy

X-Men

Rogue

Kitty Pryde

Storm (Ororo Munroe)

Nightcrawler (Kurt Wagner)

Gambit (Remy LaBeau) tied with Colossus (Piotr Rasputin)

flyingspaceoctopi:

The X-men have a weird relationship with Magneto ‘cause he’s their arch nemesis but at the same time he’s also their gay,Jewish grandpa 

(via littlestartopaz)

tear this planet inside out

wildehacked:

MAGNETO EYES STRANGE FRUIT

Out for a midnight flight, I see
two children on the playground—

the rust of blood crusting
over holes in their heads.

Their brown bodies dance
like marionettes, tangled

in the swings. “Mutie”
is scrawled across the cardboard

that hangs from their swollen necks,
the chains wrapped tight enough to tear.

I imagine what they did,
maybe the ability to turn glass into sand,

to hear rustled leaves as words,
something simple, something

humans kill for. I reach out,
close the girl’s eyes, and suddenly

I want to rip every man out of his home,
make each one burn, reverse

the earth’s rotation, rupture the core
and tear this planet inside out,

only so they can know how it feels.
It’s been so long since I’ve taught people

how to fear, since I’ve razed their cities,
bent steel and split iron into handfuls

of dust, but someone must be
the villain for the dead.

- Gary Jackson, from Missing You, Metropolis, aka the book I just discovered that is BLOWING MY ENTIRE MIND

I scrolled past this on autopilot and then my finely honed X-Men nerd brain went WAIT STOP and now I am going to buy this book because F U C K M E.

Anonymous asked: *slides in* you're probably gonna hate me: Xavier/Erik, "Stumble into my Arms"

(I don’t actually…ship this…which I know makes me weird…so here, have another Real Dark Thing)

AO3 summary: “It’s going to be okay, Charles,” Erik says quietly, brushing dark curls away from where tears have started to dry under Charles’ closed eyes.  “You’ll see.”

“He’s a madman, Erik,” Charles says dully, past caring if Apocalypse hears them.

“He’s going to fix us,” Erik swears, like a man clutching to the last thread of his own reason.  “You and me, Charles, he’s going to fix us.”

“Go to hell,” Charles says, and turns his face away when Erik bends down to pick him up from the ground.

Actual summary: It starts with a missing scene that’s like 98% Erik being obsessed with Charles and Charles being in mourning for the man he used to know and also the whole entire planet.  Apocalypse lied to Erik about why they needed Charles and Erik is shattered, pretty much clinging to Charles as his last anchor point.  So when he discovers that this plan doesn’t end with Charles converted to his viewpoint and by his side, Erik goes off the fucking rails.  The fight is a lot shorter, since Charles is in better shape and Erik doesn’t do a heel-face turn halfway through.  On the other hand, Erik is in pretty bad shape, mentally and emotionally speaking, and his worldview is pretty well shattered, after the battle.  Jean rebuilds the house herself, alone, and the fic ends with Erik broken on the floor of Charles’ reconstructed study begging for forgiveness.  Charles presses his lips thin and does not answer.

If you want bonus pain feel free to imagine this as a soulmate AU.

the-lusus-naturae:

fourteenacross:

goodluckdetective:

I have a soft spot for parental figures who don’t want to admit they’re parental figures.

“I am not a father,” he says as he is followed by a horde of children.

murder dad and his army of tragic daughters

(via ifeelbetterer)